Nothing left to muster
As i stumbled to bed at midnight i lay there thinking - Not a good idea at 0:00 - but think i did. I realized that i was not the picture of faith at this moment. I was a rather a picture of a weak, complaining, pitying and whining woman. So i decided at 0:05 (i did not ponder too long as the night ahead was already short enough) that tomorrow i would pull up my socks, get my act together and show the people around me what that woman of faith that i was supposed to be, looked like. I decided to muster all reserves and resolves and... oh, wait, 0:06 .. i have no reserves or resolves left. I have nothing in me of mustering ability. Great.
But, 0:07, i realized that at this Rock Bottom - a new low even for me, i have Jesus. And my song in the night - in E minor nonetheless - will be a cry, or rather more like a piercing scream for help.
And as i have nothing, i leave you with this song in E minor by "I am they - Amen" For when words fail, music speaks...
Key: Em
I have no words to say
Don’t know what I should pray
God, I need You, God, I need You
Oh Lord, my faith is tired
And tears fill up my eyes
But I will trust You, I will trust You
Whatever comes my way
You have taught me to say
Amen, let Your kingdom come
Amen, let Your will be done
And through the rise and fall
You’re God above it all
Amen, we’re singing Amen
When I can barely stand
You strengthen me again
I will seek You, I will seek You
Though troubles may arise
My hands reach to the skies
I will praise You, I will praise You
Whatever comes my way
You have taught me to say
Amen, let Your kingdom come
Amen, let Your will be done
And through the rise and fall
You’re God above it all
Amen, we’re singing
We’re singing Amen
From everlasting to everlasting
From everlasting to everlasting
From everlasting to everlasting
From everlasting to everlasting
Amen
Amen, let Your kingdom come
Amen, let Your will be done
And through the rise and fall
You’re God above it all
Amen, we’re singing Amen
We’re singing Amen
Bella, 0:09 signing out
Oh Bella! �� Lifting your arms in prayer!
ReplyDeleteOh my friend...these words speak it all....praying for you,mighty warrior 💕💕
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and praying for you.....when you are tired and all run through.... may all our prayers Belinda hold your arms up and help give you the strength that you need to never give up....Oh Papa.....lots of love and a Big Big Hug to you....to Alfred and to your whole family during this time of great need....May the Holy Spirit be your comfort and your guide in these times....Oh Papa.....You remain in my prayers always....�������� with Love and many Hugs Angie.
ReplyDeleteBelinda even in your greatest suffering whe you don't feel like a woman of faith.. truth is.. your faith is greater than you realize. Your life is a a testimony of strength and courage in the midst of pain and suffering. Love you beautiful lady.
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