February 27, 2017
Do i live and behave as if all i know about God is 100% true and trustworthy? Or do i project a kind of true Father, a kind of trustworthy God?
It is very easy for the small stuff! If it works out, well then, great! If it does not, then on i go....Not really a great way to live as God usually uses the small things we need to trust Him for, to help us and shape us into trusting Him even more!
This usually comes to the surface when we can make no plans of our own, when we have no other option but to go forward, ie no room for backing away. Only Trust.
Essentially, i really believe God is totally trustworthy! If He calls, He will be Faithful. God is not the problem here. My wavering heart is my downfall. The higher the stakes, the more i worry. Which, when you think about it should not really matter at all. If you have nothing and you need to trust God for a R/$100, you still have nothing. So if you need R/$100 000 you still have nothing. And let's face it; God fed 3 million hungry people for 40 years without them growing things themselves or buying their own food. He even topped it with quail for everyone! Water from a rock in a desert, parting the sea for them, showing His might by tumbling a great thick wall without them having to use catapults or battering rams! Only God.
So, here i am with my worries. Will God come through? Will He?
Did He send us on this quest for Him? Yes. Has His assignment changed? No. Is He a Loving Father? Yes. Does He care about each and every small detail as well as the big ones? Absolutely!
These past weeks have been quite something on the trust scale! Apart from having to trust God to take care of huge finacial needs i also had to trust Him for outcomes totally out of my control! Huge growth spurt on this side of the screen would be an understatement!
All three boys had surgeries (2x tonsillectomies and 1x wisdom teeth removals) plus 2 x visa applications And an assortment of smaller and bigger added challenges as well. And through it all, i heard God say every time i started to worry - "I've got this".
"Don't worry about anything; on the contrary, make your requests known to God by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving. Then God's shalom, passing all understanding, will keep your hearts and minds safe in union with the Messiah Yeshua."
What more can i say? God is Faithful, He will never fail us. Never. And He gets ALL the glory and the thanks!!
Bella, so, so thankful!