Booster shots of Brave....

 

When we lived in Moz i always made sure that our vaccinations were up to date. Especially the tetanus shot had to be in my house full of adventurous boys. Wise. Usually a tetanus shot lasts for about 10 years, but we had ours every 5 years just in case we used it up. Haha, better safe than sorry? My brave kids, living with a mother like me! In any case, i was thinking today that i needed a booster shot, but not tetanus, no a booster of brave, because I suspected that mine was running low. I wasn’t sure how or where to get my shot of brave and yes, it was challenged today in a big way - nearly depleted actually, but thankfully not all gone.

I needed a reminder of where my brave came from. This life has added injury to insult, has kicked me while I was lying down and I desperately needed help.  I was feeling lost, scared and alone. And definitely not brave. 

I must have sung “Oceans” by Hillsong about 5000 times over the last couple of years. A song in Em. Perfect. My guitar knows it well. I sing it as a prayer to strengthen my faith, as a reminder Whom i belong to or whenever Life just gets me down. Today was one of them days.....while driving home even the weather reflected my heart. The mountains were covered in mist, it was cold and windy and the clouds were crying softly on my behalf. Not the weeping-uncontrollable-type-of-crying, just the soft, resigned kind. Tears of the unbrave. Tears of the ready-to-give-up.

I was fresh out of answers. I have no clue as to what the future holds. (But then again, who really has?) Nonetheless, my brave was low. So i sang. And i called upon the Name and felt His grace which abounds in deepest waters (i was definitely in deepest waters) and my soul found rest in His embrace. I am His. He is my Brave. I don’t need a shot. I have God. And best of all - He has me.

Bella

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior 

I will call upon Your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

Hillsong